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First days back are always challenging and today was no exception. It started off with a difficult voice lesson and although it was definitely needed, I came out of it feeling a little defeated. It might have to do with the jetlag or the insufficient sleep, but whatever it was, I’m hoping to wake up feeling more optimistic and ready to put in some hard work.

This afternoon, acting class focused on viewpoints and getting line athletically aware of our bodies and reacting to external and internal influences and impulses. I’m not new to this concept, but it was great to just move around and not take myself so seriously this afternoon. When you’re rolling around on the ground and your body is covered in dust and dirt, it’s hard NOT to let go a little bit.

Transitions are always tough, but seeing all my friends again today definitely lifted my spirits and much as I may be missing the Californian sunshine, I’m hoping Boston’s arctic freeze will thaw soon enough.

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Good morning!

I’m blogging early today because I just finished my first run of marathon training at the gym! I woke up this morning and just felt like this was the day to get back to the gym and do the damn thing. And boy was it hard. I remember 2 years ago when I was running 6 miles easily about five times a week, and I had to keep reminding myself to push through for another few minutes, just for another quarter of a mile, but I am really proud of myself for doing it!

I knew it wasn’t going to be easy because it’s been quite a while since I’ve seriously committed to running, and weight lifting makes me strong but doesn’t condition me cardio-wise the same way running does. So I focused on my breathing, and kept promising myself the next mile would be easier. And it got through 4 miles with a little cool-down afterwards! My goal was to get at least 3 miles in, and I hoped for 5 but today I am extremely grateful for my 4 miles. I kept a pretty good pace for myself as well and although now I’m suffering from SEVERE red face (how could I have forgotten that existed??) I am also excited about having set a goal for myself that will help keep me accountable for training.

As if I needed any other reasons to feel awesome this morning, one of my lovely friends who I saw the regional auditions with, started asking me about running and we’ve decided to sign up for a 10k in April together! Although I’ve always been a solitary runner, since I really enjoy the time to think and sweat and jive to really good music, I’m looking forward to having a partner in crime to for this race! It’ll be great timing since I’ll be whole-hog into my marathon training and the 10k will remind me what it feels like to be in a race situation.

I also wanted to touch on another thing that came up for me, being at the gym for the first time in a while. I notice myself doing this and it totally bugs me!! I see other girls at the gym and start to compare myself to them- what they look like, what they’re doing at the gym, and it totally leads me to feel negative about my own accomplishments. I know as women we’re constantly bombarded by what “beauty” is in the media, and now how we should be “fit” not “skinny” thanks to the elite athletes who have 5% body fat, and although I applaud those women who compete at such incredible levels of fitness, that is simply not realistic for the rest of us. Not should it define whether we are strong or beautiful or accomplished.

I feel pushed to compare myself to others because for some reason, that’s the way I’m supposed to know how to feel about myself. How stupid is that?! I want to feel proud of my body and all that it can do, WITHOUT these qualifiers, like; I’m strong but I don’t have a six-pack, I’m beautiful but my thighs do touch, I’m smart but I’m not getting special awards for it. Why can’t we just accept our flaws and decide that we are not beautiful and incredible despite them, but BECAUSE of them?

I know that I feel my best when I don’t allow that external negativity get to me, and instead try to think of all the ways I’m grateful to have a healthy body that CAN run 4 miles! That CAN get through a super tough power yoga class! That CAN sing really beautiful and legato phrases! That CAN finish reading a 500-page book in a matter of days! That CAN express my love for my friends and family on a daily basis! These may sound silly, but those are the important things, that we need to remember to hold onto when the negativity can seem overwhelming.


So today, I am proud of my awesomely sweaty and tough 4-miler and I know that in a couple weeks I’ll look back and WISH that was the longest run I had planned for the week! I choose to focus on the positives and I know that is what continues to make me a happy and healthy gal. 🙂

Spread the love, what are you proud of yourself for doing today or recently??

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40 days of yoga!!

After a fabulous start to the weekend yesterday, today was a bit more low key. I’ve been studying, practicing (!!!) and reading. Along with my decision to commit completely to music right now and for the next year and a half, I know I need to be practicing much more. As with any habit, it takes time for it to become part of your routine and I think it’s high time I have myself the kick in the pants I need to make it happen.

I wanted to share that I’ve started a mini-challenge to myself, both mentally and physically, to do 40 consecutive days of yoga! I’ve been going strong for a week now and I’m already feeling changes in my mindfulness in everyday activities- like just breathing when I’m stressed waiting for the bus, or reminding myself that my body knows what it needs in terms of food and sleep. I’m really looking forward to seeing how I grow and come into myself over the next 30+ days.

I’m off to eat some delicious takeout garden veggie pizza and watch a chick flick with my roomie now!

Happy Saturday!!

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Today I: want to share a definition that completely resonated with me. So much so that I immediately felt lighter once I read it, then I re-read it, and read it again. It feels like the answer and the reason why I have been on this mission to grow and become myself again after struggling through a long period of depression.



Right now, I am feeling everything again. I am trying to practice mindfulness, even though I know I don’t always succeed. I am allowing myself to make mistakes, because that is how I will learn. These things are a constant struggle for me, but I know that with these struggles, I will get stronger, and maybe some day these problems I’m facing now will dissipate and I’ll have a whole host of new problems! I can only hope that is the case because I want to forever be growing and expanding myself.

I want to understand my very existence and I want to experience my life with every breath I take. Here’s to continuing on this difficult path!


Tomorrow is officially my Friday this week thanks to several cancelled classes, so I am saying HELLO WEEKEND!

To everyone else, happy hump day! What are you doing to get you through this week?



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