Monthly Archives: September 2013

Channa masala and naan, oh my!

Today I’m happy about: savoring delicious food and really enjoying my day. I had along rehearsal planned that ended earlier for me than I thought it would. I had a lot of homework to catch up on, but I managed to finish it up. It took me about 2 hours and 3 buses, including a flat tire, to get home, but I didn’t let it bring me down. This is a new feeling for me, because of how things have been recently, but tonight I am peaceful and calm, and ready to begin another week of classes and let’s be honest, mayhem.

I hope you all had a gorgeous weekend, anyone get outside and do anything with this beautiful weather?

Love,
Happiness Starts Here

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Naturally sweetened

Today I’m happy about: keeping the tone of my whole day positive. I read lifebeinggirly‘s post about anxiety yesterday and in the spirit of combatting my anxiety rather than letting it take over, I tried to employ some of her coping techniques.
I had a good amount of rehearsal today, but I managed to get in a good sweat session at the gym this morning and enjoyed a fantastic vegan chickpea “tuna” melt from one of my favorite quick cafe’s Blue State Coffee. Throughout my day I had really good and not necessarily deep, but real conversations with people on 3 separate occasions and that made me feel really good about myself.
I stumbled upon a video online yesterday about ways to instantly make yourself happier, and it suggested that showing gratitude can increase your happiness, so all day I’ve tried to be mindful of my interactions with others and have worked to stay in my “feel-good” place.
For anyone who has anxiety, or who has faced depression or disordered thinking of any kind, sometimes getting to that place can seem like the longest journey in the world but when we do finally get there it feels like it could slip through our fingers at any time. My goal is not to latch onto happiness because I don’t want to be hanging on for dear life, I want it to exist within me in an organic way, but for that to happen I need to become more aware of what I can personally do to help myself.

Like I said earlier, this week has been a bit of a struggle for me, but I know I am going to make it through because I truly want to.

Happy Saturday friends!

Love,
Happiness Starts Here

Feelin’ Good

Today I’m happy about: keeping a positive outlook all day! I had a great morning, talked with my mom later, are a delicious homemade lunch, had a productive rehearsal and have time to finish up homework tonight. Although not all days are great, this one has been really wonderful and just what I needed.

Happy Friday to you, I hope your weekend is off to a great start!

Love,
Happiness Starts Here

Slowing down without stopping

Today I’m happy about: sudoku, clean and clear face wash and chicken noodle soup. Three things getting me through this yucky cold and cough. Our show opens next weekend and although I’m just a cover/understudy, I am trying to recover as quickly as possible.

It’s been a bit tough to stay optimistic amidst a lot of big changes for me recently, and this sickness feels like another hindrance. However, I’m trying to look at the additional rest time as a positive thing and zoning in on how I can better care for myself, mentally and physically. I’m a healthy person and workout regularly and try to eat healthily, but when my body feel like it’s failing me by getting sick, I have to re-prioritize. We are all only human and we really do work ourselves to the bone, oftentimes pushing ourselves too far before we realize it. I’m taking this as a sign I need to make sure I take care of myself entirely, so I can perform (literally and figuratively) to the best of my abilities.

Thank you Thursday, I can’t wait to meet your pal Friday! 🙂

Love,
Happiness Starts Here

Coconut milk ice cream dream

Today I’m happy about: having some time to take it easy as my cold-sickness is getting me down, and a new purchase- So Delicious Coconut Milk Cookie Dough Ice Cream! It is so deliciously creamy and satisfying, without making me feel like a bloated massive monster! But really, I’m sure you fellow lactose-intolerant friends can relate. And if you love cookie dough the way I do, definitely check out this flavor!

Happy hump day Wednesday!

Love,
Happiness Starts Here

My dearest friend

Today I’m happy about: catching up with my mom. No matter what is going on or what state I begin our conversation, she somehow manages to help me put everything in perspective and I feel like I can take on everything about life that scares or worries me. Being all the way out on the east coast has been tough but knowing she is a text message or phone call away helps tremendously.

Happy Tuesday folks!

Love,
Happiness Starts Here

Feeling the flow

Today I’m happy about: having an incredible voice lesson. I have been struggling with some technique issues in my singing for a while now, and to finally be having them addressed and FIXED is improving my whole attitude towards singing and my passion, opera. I know there is a long road ahead of me to get where I need to, but having had a glimpse at what could be is helping propel me forward. I can’t wait to see where my voice will go as I continue to work and grow.

This is shaping up to be a pretty great Monday! Hope you’re enjoying yours too.

Love,
Happiness Starts Here

Stay healthy!

Today I’m happy about: meatballs for dinner. And although I’m on the cusp of sickness, I’m hoping I took enough medicine this evening to knock it out before it progresses and gets worse.

Happy Sunday!
Did you do anything fun this weekend?

Love,
Happiness Starts Here

Getting down to the nitty-gritty

Today I’m happy about overcoming my own poor attitude. I woke up in a funk and felt down and anxious, and this feeling lingered all day. I worried and I over-analyzed and I tried to control my circumstances in a way that was unhealthy. But after my long day of rehearsals ended, I sucked it up and I hit the gym. I hit it hard and with so much anger as motivation, that I got in a fantastic workout, but walked a fine line between exaltation and a breakdown for a large part of it. I Am thankful I went and worked out my frustrations and in doing so was able to have a heart to heart with my boyfriend and finally reveal some of the things I had previously been scared to. Now I feel completely exhausted, but in the best way possible. Mentally and physically I am drained but I know I will sleep peacefully tonight and that tomorrow will be much better.

I am growing, slowly but surely and I am feeling the effects ten-fold by forcing myself to address them in a real way. Happy Saturday my beautiful friends!

Love,
Happiness Starts Here

Don’t just let the world happen to you

Today I’m happy about: having a seriously amazing and intense workout this morning. I felt full of energy and pushed my muscles to their absolute limit without worrying or caring about anything but accomplishing that. I felt so satisfied after completing that workout and I think it has helped reignite my flame for why I love working out so much.
I love feeling excited about waking up in the morning, and between my music and workouts and the support from my family and boyfriend, I am feeling in a good place right now.

However, this weekend I will still be making the commitment to meet with someone to talk about my anxiety and a few other issues. I can’t stress enough how important it is to address these problems- they don’t make you crazy, abnormal or beyond help, if anything, reaching out is what makes you strong and will help you make the most of your amazing and wonderful life.

Happy Friday night! I am always here if you want to share a few words, or a lot of them.

Love,
Happiness Starts Here